Time is flying by !!

Well today I am officially a mother of a teenager!!
How and When did that happen ?
Its seems like yesterday my whole day consisted of changing diapers, staggering feedings, kissing boo-boo's and keeping my sanity !!
Well I am still trying to keep my sanity wholly intact! But my days have changed to say the least!! Now it consists of driving to and from "hang out" times, piano lessons, and a variety of other things ! Instead of staggering feedings I am trying to keep some food in the house, since it all disappears as fast as we buy it !! Diapers are a distant memory....we've moved on to other undergarments !! I think I may be getting a little rusty at kissing boo-boo's BUT there is still no shortage of tears to go around here!! The emotions that float around this house on any given day amazes me! We run the whole gamut with such intensity it is truly a sight to behold.

Its funny how life changes with out you even noticing! One day you are everything to this little one. You hold her hand firmly and guide her every step. Without you she could not eat or have any comfort, she depends on your love to get up with her when she is hungry or sick. And you do so gladly....its that love that keeps you going when the days are endless, and the toys are scattered wall to wall....and the diapers stink, and the dishes are sky high, and the laundry higher still!

Its that same love that wonders how you will make it through the next six years as slowly you loosen that firm grip you have had on her hand. As you watch her step slowly away on her own, making choices, facing challenges and taking chances. As you let that grip that loosen you realize that you are not her EVERYTHING anymore ! Don't get me wrong I am not ready to get demoted yet...I still expect the slot right below God and Daddy . Even still it feels different now. It amazes when I watch her from a distance how much of that little girl is gone, never to be seen again. Replaced by a young woman who is trying so hard to define herself. That is when I know I am still very much needed to reaffirm the gift that she is, the treasure that she was created to be ....who knows that better than the one who has watched her emerge from the safety of my little cocoon ......today she may have her wings but I am still keeping her close by! I still have her safe by the hand.......for a little longer.......working toward the day when she will fly.......